I feel constantly pulled in a million different directions, but this is only the beginning and a feeling that I am going to have to get used to with four children. I think I do a better job focusing on the girls when I am with them than I probably do with Jake and Emmett. That is the one good thing about the NICU - it's quiet and I am there to hold them and that's it. I had the nurse take a quick pick of me holding the girls today with my phone. I am so happy holding them and so happy to have these girls. I was missing them before I even knew they were going to be born. Does that make sense? It does to me. My family feels complete now.